When you write memoir, sooner or later you come upon the issue of, “Is this my story to tell?” – “What about the other people in the story?” As with any dilemma, there is no easy answer. It is, arguably, easier to write about dead people, but there you often run into the issue of whether you can verify those stories of the past, especially those you did not experience yourself.

My great-grandfather’s sewing machine, still in use on
my dining room table

When my aunt and uncle visited last fall, I brought out my sewing machine, which used to belong to my great-grandfather, namely my uncle’s (and my mom’s) paternal grandfather. He gave it to my mom when she moved to Germany, and she in turn gave it to me when I became interested in sewing in my teens. Even though it is a basic Singer machine that only goes back and forth, no fancy zigzag or anything like that, for many years I made almost all my own clothes with it, including a leather coat (it is a heavy duty machine) and my wedding dress.

When I moved back to the States, I took it with me, unwrapped the original U.S. motor my dad had carefully packaged in 1964 newspaper, took off the German motor, attached the old American one and voila, the machine worked again on U.S. current. Alas, these days I mainly shorten pants with it or sew the odd costume for my kids. But every time I take it out, I’m proud that I’m still using something that’s older than I am, and that those who came before me have sat at, hunched over, rattling away.

My mom’s story goes that her grandfather bought that sewing machine in the late 1950s to sew underwear for his incontinent wife. I cherish that story because I always found it rather remarkable that such a manly man as my great-grandfather had sat down to sew underwear. It seemed like such a loving gesture.

Had my uncle heard that same story? He hadn’t. Instead, he told me other stories about my great-grandparents; that, for instance, they didn’t speak to each other for a few years because of some falling out. Still lived together, ate together, slept together, but didn’t talk to each other. Remarkable, eh?

But, my uncle said, that story of the sewing machine is entirely possible, as my great-grandmother was indeed “having problems” in her later years. Even if he didn’t know about it, sewing machines were not exactly on his radar as a young man. “So,” he said generously, “I think you own that story.”